[Jason knows he probably shouldnβt lay so much trust at Bruceβs feet and the worry that Bruce will fire him continues to linger, but maybe Bruce can help.
Maybe he can dig Jason out of this mess heβs created for himself.]
Itβs Crane. And he connected me to a guy named Silco.
( The desperation is not only in the way he holds to Jason, but in his voice, too, then. )
I lost one son already, I'm not going to lose another.
( Damian is here β alive β sure. But he doesn't remember him or their time together and if something like that or worse were to happen to Jason, well. He can only take so much. )
( He lets go of the back of Jason's head β drops his hand to his side and just stares down. Numb. Maybe he was right. He can't do this β be what any of them need. No one needs him.
So, he nods. Slowly. Turns back to the food and stares to it before he pinches the bridge of his nose. Headache still there. He'd forgotten in his concern for the other. Looking ahead, he licks over his lips, eyes distant. )
( Bruceβ this Bruce is very wary of who he lets into his circle and when he comes to care for someone, no matter how much he might try and deny it to himself, eventually the truth comes out. Like it had with Damian as well. )
( He ducks his head then, licking over his lips some. )
If it's... too much for you...
( He knows he had a relationship with the Bruce he knows, regardless of how difficult and, in the end, upsetting it became. Like with Damian, he's not his father β not even his father figure and it's foolish of him to think he could be, but. Sometimes... it just happens. To care for someone. )
( At that, blue eyes lift their gaze up to catch Jasonβs and he stares to the boy. Quiet. A softness there in those eyes of his he doesnβt always show others. )
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Maybe he can dig Jason out of this mess heβs created for himself.]
Itβs Crane. And he connected me to a guy named Silco.
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Listen to me. Crane is not your friend. He's dangerous and he'll use you to get what he wants.
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[Jason understands what Bruce is saying but he canβt give up on the antidote. Not now.]
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We'll find another way. You don't have to do this alone.
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[Jason sags a little, growing more and more aware of just how deep a hole heβs dug for himself.]
If I donβt keep going back, heβll think somethingβs up.
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I lost one son already, I'm not going to lose another.
( Damian is here β alive β sure. But he doesn't remember him or their time together and if something like that or worse were to happen to Jason, well. He can only take so much. )
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I canβt, Bruce. I canβt stop.
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You can, Jason. Because I believe in you.
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I have to do this, Bruce.
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So, he nods. Slowly. Turns back to the food and stares to it before he pinches the bridge of his nose. Headache still there. He'd forgotten in his concern for the other. Looking ahead, he licks over his lips, eyes distant. )
I need to lay down. Head's hurting again.
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Iβll try, okay? Please. Please donβt give up on me.
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( He's just giving up on himself. )
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Iβll do it. Iβll go straight to Crane.
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( Nothing he says is enough for Jason. )
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[Jasonβs desperation grows.]
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Or you could just stay here.
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[Jason watches Bruce, in case heβs about to drop him instead.]
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( If reaching out to him as he had... if calling him his son isn't enough to persuade Jason... then maybe he really isn't enough for him. )
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Did you mean what you said? Calling me βsonβ?
[He rolls right into,] My Bruce said that like ten seconds before he called me a mistake.
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( Bruceβ this Bruce is very wary of who he lets into his circle and when he comes to care for someone, no matter how much he might try and deny it to himself, eventually the truth comes out. Like it had with Damian as well. )
And you're not a mistake. You never have been.
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Son. [Jason repeats out loud.]
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If it's... too much for you...
( He knows he had a relationship with the Bruce he knows, regardless of how difficult and, in the end, upsetting it became. Like with Damian, he's not his father β not even his father figure and it's foolish of him to think he could be, but. Sometimes... it just happens. To care for someone. )
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[Jason watches Bruce for a moment.]
Just donβt take it back.
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Not even with my final breath would I do that.
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Then yeah. Call me βsonβ if you want.
[Which is honestly monumental.]
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